happy fasting month!
Thursday, September 14th, 2006
life’s a bitch whe
n things doesn’t go your way. but then appreciate life because you only have one. but how can you appreciate them if you are not happy. people commit suicide because they are not happy. but don’t go there if you want to stay out of hell. i want to be happy. i want everybody to be happy. i want people who stand by me to be happy. yet, i made them uneasy. yet, i made them lose their faith in me. yet, i made them sad. where did i go wrong?
why did i even bother to make other people happy when they sometimes don’t even care about me. but i don’t blame them. they got other matters to attend to. other people for them to look after. they can bother about me later. well, until then i have to be patient. patience needs a lot of faith. you’re bound to be lost if you don’t have faith. after all, it’s just a little while. have i lost my faith? why can’t i be patient? am i too greedy? well, if it’s just for a little while, i can wait. i have to be understanding at times. just try. they are trying, so why should i succumb?
i am so sorry for hurting. it hurts me too. so that’s my share of fairness. writing can be fun sometimes, especially when you’re hurt. though it won’t heal you, it makes you better. 
