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i wonder how the hell people like zaid+mamau or keanu+athi could do it..but i sure have a lot of respect towards them..it was never a big deal for me before of spending the time alone during the holidays..but after she came into my life, a lot of things changed..now i have somebody that i can share even the slightest problems i have with..i don’t have to keep everything to myself anymore..

holidays aren’t that great like it used to be..they are now full with pain and sorrow..not that much of a pain actually, but still it was never the same..sometimes i wonder, y can’t i be living in a place like kl, where there are so many people to talk to, frens to see and of course mai to comfort me..i’m not saying that she isn’t comforting me, no i’m not..she has been a great girlfren to me and i love her for that ;] ..but now even keanu and his family will be leaving ipoh sometime later..ipoh is such a lovely place, but the community just sucked, or i’m the one who’s being such a jerk around here..really, i’ve never felt this emptiness & loneliness inside me..

i always made u worried n sad kan ayang..and i’m sorry for always acting like an idiot and an immature brat..its just that i miss u so much..that’s all..argh y do i have to post this anyway..maybe because i have nothing better to do at this time of the day..u asked me kan tadi ayg what am i going to do after u went to sleep..well here’s what i did..hehe..at least i don’t have to fill my time thinking about things..well, if it happens, it happens la kan..not being able to hope is really boring, but there will always be some other time..i’m just hoping that i can see u at least one time during this long period of time..but still that’s hoping..so who cares..gile la kalo taleh nak hope langsung..haha..why am i always making a big deal about small things..definately one of my bad qualities yg obviously nobody likes..still learning though..give it some time to get used to..nak write summore nanti lagi ngarut jadinyeh..better i stop here and find something better to do..it’s still far from my bedtime..nguap pun belum..argh bosan, bosan, bosan..hahaha..tulis blog ni sometimes can put all your miseries away..u r busy thinking what u r going to write la kan sampai u forgot ur real problems..at least now i’m better than before..nak buat ape nih..nak buat ape nih..hmm..can i call u now ayang?